|
|
Monday, February 24th, 2003
| |
9:51 pm
|
My lj is gonna be friends only...because I'm giving into peer preasure. But I love you. And if you really want me just comment.
current mood:  apathetic
current music: Midnight snack - The Donnas
|
|
(2 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| |
8:50 pm - woo
|
Despite being way sick for 5 days now, I had a way awesome weekend. On Friday and Sunday I went and saw Escapade (our schools dance team) and they kicked booty. After the show on Sunday we went back to Alysa'a house and hung out.
( YaY for pictures )
current mood:  anxious
|
|
(4 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Thursday, January 16th, 2003
| |
11:19 pm - hey again
|
sorry i haven't updated in forever. I've been having a really good month that has been filled with lots of stuff. One of my best friend's birthdays just happened on the 15th and mine is on the 25th, so it's kinda hectic. But all is well.
I'm really, really, really excited because I really like this guy and I'm going over to his house on Friday (tomorrow?) to watch Fight Club. Because I've never seen it. and we might go to the Drive In. And I'm soooo happy. But I'm also afraid I'm getting my hopes up.
But I'm gonna be sixteen and I've never been kissed. And that is sooooo depressing. I'm gonna cry.
|
|
(5 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Tuesday, December 17th, 2002
| |
10:30 pm
|
Today was short.
Have I told you all that I secretly want pen pals? Like a billion! But I don't know how to get them, and I'm scared of weirdo creeps on line. *tear*
current mood:  awake
current music: the streets
|
|
(1 Naughty Bitch | Spank It)
|
| Monday, December 16th, 2002
| |
4:10 pm - yay!
|
Today I had no school. Wow! That is sooo great! And... yeah!
And to top it off, I watched some old school gap commercials that I downloaded a while ago. Good times.
I've had a shitty month, but it's days like today that keep me giddy! Yay!
So...you like men? 'Cause I do!
current mood:  giddy
current music: mellow yellow (gap)
|
|
(3 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Wednesday, December 11th, 2002
| |
5:59 pm
|
umm, im hott, what? so life is life. the past 2 days have been bad. depressing even, and it makes me even more sad when people care. because when i cry and no one cares...it is somewhat easier. but when people worry, it makes me feel guilty. blah! whatever. sad staci needs to get off line or my mom will bite my ass. ugh.
where did the capitalization go? ahhhhh
current mood:  bitchy
current music: cowboys - paula cole
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Sunday, December 8th, 2002
| |
12:42 am - hello again
|
I havent been here for ages, but i am back and i am alive. i wrote this poem, but im not sure if i want to post it. It is sort of sad. If you think I should just tell me. I've missed you all. And...yay!
Love*staci
current mood:  accomplished
current music: dance:10; looks:3 (a chorus line)
|
|
(2 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Friday, September 6th, 2002
| |
9:04 pm - ...on a lighter note...
|
things could be better right now, but I feel no more need to complain. I'm working on the rally for homecoming. And I just found out that I am in charge of set dressing (painting an such) for the Fall Play, as well as concessions. That is soo big for me. I'm a sophmore and already I'm in charge of EVERYONE. It will be tough, but I'm willing.
Tomorrow is funeral day. *tear*
current mood: cranky
current music: goodbye to you
|
|
(2 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Thursday, August 22nd, 2002
| |
10:04 pm - yay!
|
current mood: anxious
current music: pp-anthem
|
|
(1 Naughty Bitch | Spank It)
|
| Friday, July 26th, 2002
| |
1:43 am - *swoons*
|
*~the good side of evil~*
current mood: horny
current music: moby - we are all made of stars
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Monday, July 22nd, 2002
| |
12:11 am - crap
|
i thought i had a stroke of genius... but i was wrong. DAMNIT!
current mood: aggravated
current music: dsfhjkfhfhgfggfsa
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Sunday, July 21st, 2002
| |
5:51 pm - hmm...
|
why do i enjoy my immaturity?
current mood: anxious
current music: phantom planet- asteroid g
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Saturday, July 13th, 2002
| |
9:43 pm - my funeral
|
... in all my years, I've always desired to be dead. I can't tell you why. I just have. I like to myself it's because there is something lacking in my life. But what In really think, is that I'M the problem. No matter how 'happy' I am or how much i have, it seems I am never satisfied. As if life just isn't enough. And I'm sure some will say that all I have to do is look inside myself and find the true meaning of life. I just don't believe there is one. Is there something I was suppose to learn? Because if it is depression, I assure you, I've succeeded. I don't know. Sometime in the near future, I want to be gone from this world. Because, what would be better than starting a new life? But, killing myself has always been so dark and unappealing. Whatever tempts me is a force much greater than suicide. I just don't know what.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: again I go unnoticed - dc
|
|
(4 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Monday, July 8th, 2002
| |
1:42 am
|
i dont know what to say... i guess life isn't too bad right now. i mean at some point it has to start getting better, right?
current mood:  blank
current music: goodbye to you : michelle branch
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Monday, July 1st, 2002
| |
12:18 am - GRRR...
|
sometimes its just like 'fuck it'. and i really dont understand why i have all this animosity. but i know i have a shortage of friends. i have lost every single friend but one. and that one friend is the very reason i have no other friends. and it hurts. it hurts to know you love some one so much, but you can't watch yourself blame them.
i feel like no matter how many times i confront someone they just dont get it. and i cry. i just cry. what else can a broken heart do? tell me! tell me that. with out my friends: i have nothing and i am nothing. but then its like with them my life is still shitty. shitty enough for me to hate myself. shitty enough for me to find a reason to complain. and this whole thing. this whole life im living is making me sick to my stomach. all i want to do anymore is sleep. and i just desperatley need someone to confide in.
( one down... a billion to go )
current mood:  indescribable
current music: dont speak - no doubt
|
|
(1 Naughty Bitch | Spank It)
|
| Monday, June 24th, 2002
| |
10:50 pm - ...and life goes on...
|
My mom and sisters are making it so that I'll never trust myself again.
My gay cousin is my favorite person in the whole wide world.
Poverty is evil!
When I grow up I hope to be the coolest ice cream truck driver anyone has ever seen.
Tomorrow is just another day.
I wish I had a bathtub full of yellow marshmallow Peeps.
I hope Frank (the LJ sheep) dies before I do.
Why the hell is your friend your enemy?
I can do uselessness.
Ferris Bueller you're my hero!
I wish life were like one big episode of Undressed.
GRR
current mood: aggravated
current music: I feel so - box car racer
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Monday, May 27th, 2002
| |
10:40 pm - *SMILES*
|
My sis had a barbecue yesterday and I realized the more I get to know someone the more I love them. Cause sometimes, when I get to know the people I once hated, I end up becoming their biggest fan.
Anyway...
Finals are coming up, which leads to the inevitable fact that school is without a doubt evil. But, the bad kind of evil, you know?
I make no sense.
I love you all. I still miss you. *hugs*
current mood:  content
current music: If you're happy and you know it clap your hands!
|
|
(Spank It)
|
| Thursday, May 23rd, 2002
| |
4:57 pm - I'M BACK
|
So, I took a little break from lj and aol. I had to work on my school's musical and shit just kinda happened. But I'm back, and I've missed you all. *hugs*
*staci*
current mood: accomplished
current music: bouncing off the walls - sugar cult
|
|
(1 Naughty Bitch | Spank It)
|
| Friday, April 5th, 2002
| |
12:56 am - HAPPY!
|
Yay! I changed my journal!...again! But hey, I like it now... especially my icon. If I would've left the upper half of the pic you could see Cameron Diaz and her lovely smile. But I just wanted an icon with her hand in her undies! Go figure! Ehh, well I'm gonna go... I'm thinking about updating more often so that these random updates don't seem so... random.
current mood: amused
current music: Can't fight the moonlight - LeAnn
|
|
(4 Naughty Bitches | Spank It)
|
| Sunday, March 31st, 2002
| |
11:31 pm - yeah, well... what are ya gonna do?
|
After staring at the computer screen I decide to write something. Today was... better than yesterday. I had what my mom likes to call 'an incident in result of too much pressure'. Basically, I'm depressed and have issues, yeah? I think I might be getting social again, or so I like to tell myself. People are calling again which means I'm not "PMSing 24/7" anymore. My friends are idiots, but thats normal.
The weird thing is that I know I have issues and I know that shit is royally fucked up but I know what it is caused by. And it's just stupid. Everything that is wrong with me, or people I know I can just sit down and relate it back to something or someone and blame that for the fucked up-ness. Or maybe... I just have a shitload to learn and I'm basically being naive. Either way you look at it, it sucks for me!
So, yeah! It's Easter. I got a new discman, and a cd, and better headphones, and a new eyebrow ring, and an appointment to get my hair done, and a board game, plus a buttload of candy. So, I should be good for like another hour.
Ehh, I should probably answer my IM's and maybe play The Sims if things get desperate.
OOOH and I made a bunch of new icons, so my lj might change again. Woo, too much fun!
current mood: cranky
current music: "youve got mail" ehh
|
|
(1 Naughty Bitch | Spank It)
|
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
angrykittie's journal